Poetry and memories…
Saturday, April 28, 2007 at 10:57 pm | In Uncategorized | Leave a CommentI truly don’t have literary talent… but about 10 years ago, I was into making rhymes up at the top of my head (spur of the moment) just for fun. It actually started to drive my friends up the wall after a while. I can see now how annoying such a habit can be.
But as I was going through my files, I found a few that I composed, and thought I would post… for prosperity. It’s a bit trite… but oh well.
Sitting quiet, deep in thought
questions, wonders, sighs are caught…
As time ticks on to bring the morrow,
old things past, I no longer sorrow…
the present, now, the moment, here,
seize the moment and make it dear!
Carpe Diem… yes, use this moment
things we do, will make us, won’t it?
Things to do now fill my head,
as I yawn, and now go off to bed.
zzzz
God, how amazing you are…so faithful and just,
gentle and kind, you’re the one that I trust…
I wander and falter, and stumble at times,
yet you reach down and hold me, your hand over mine…
So awesome, so great, breathless I feel,
to grasp at your greatness…my heart starts to reel..
The piece that was missing…so empty.. so drear..
all this time it was you Lord, close and so near…
What I lacked was not fame, or love or success,
It was only you my dear Lord, your love and goodness!!
I’ve stopped watching the TV news lately.
Friday, April 27, 2007 at 10:10 pm | In gripes | Leave a CommentPart of the issue is that I got all riled up and angry watching the news. Where are the ethics, and responsibility? When does it stop being about sheer numbers and viewership, and more about moral responsibility as a journalist?
Either way, I’m disenchanted lately with the news. It is no longer part of my daily diet of what I watch. I’ve tried to get more of my news from slightly more reliable sources such as NPR or New York Times Online. We’ll see how that goes. So far, so good.
At least I’m no longer ranting on this blog about my feelings about the news and media. And THAT is a good thing.
Facebook security Issues part 2
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 at 12:19 pm | In gripes, technology | Leave a CommentDatamining is something I don’t like. That’s why when I go to places like Ikea or some other clothing store and they ask for my postal code, I simply say, “no.”
Datamining occurs everywhere. Whether we like it or not, our data, be it our purchasing patterns related to our credit cards, or our medication profiles related to our pharmacy are mined and sold off to the highest bidder.
But I guess facebook is a little bit more insiduous in that we offer up quite a bit of data, pictures, relationships, contacts, education and much much more. Here is an interesting link:
I can only imagine
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 at 6:52 pm | In Love that music! | Leave a Comment
I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face
Is before me
I can only imagine
{Chorus}:
Surrounded by Your glory,
what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus
or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence
or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah,
will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine.
A time of grieving…
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 at 11:39 am | In being asian | Leave a CommentThere is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: …a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance… (Ecclesiastes 3:1 &4)
And certainly this is a time to grieve (both as a nation, as well as someone with a Korean ethnic heritage).
There is a verse in the bible that comes to mind. It goes the following way: Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. (Romans 12:15). And I think we are all mourning the people who died, as well as grieving right along side with the families that are suffering as a result of yesterday’s tragedy…
On my knees…
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 at 11:21 am | In Love that music! | Leave a CommentOn my knees. I think this is where the rest of the nation… is. Looking for a greater power to answer the questions we have for yesterday’s tragedy…
There are days
when I feel
The best of me
is ready to begin
Then there’s days
when I feel
I’m letting go
and soaring on the wind
‘Cause I’ve learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive!I get on my knees! (x2)
There I am before the Love
That changes me
See I don’t know how
But there’s power
When I’m on my kneesI can be
in a crowd
Or by myself
and almost anywhere
When I feel
there’s a need
To talk with God
He is Emmanuel
When I close my eyes,
no darkness there
There’s only light!
I get on my knees (x2)
there I am before the Love that changes me
See I don’t know how, but there’s power
In the blue skies, in the midnight
When I’m on my knees!
I get on my knees! (x2)
There I am before the love
That changes me
See I don’t know how
But there’s power
When I’m on my…
Ohhhhh When I’m on my
When I’m on my…..knees.
word of God speak…
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 at 11:08 am | In virginia tech | Leave a CommentSometimes… there are no words… just pain, anger and questions. And all I want are answers…
Virginia tech shooting…
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 at 10:57 am | In virginia tech | Leave a CommentSo I woke up to NPR saying the shooter was a South Korean National. Great. He was a US alien resident (i.e. landed permanent resident), Korean national, and a Virginia tech student. I’m so angry that this happened. I’m upset this young man, who had so much to live for, decided to go out and take innocent lives along with his own.
WHY? What could have made him so horribly angry, or so upset to lash out in rage at society like that? What was so hopeless about his life that he decided to end his life, and hurt others in the process? Why? These are questions I would ask him, as well as the Columbine shooters. Why?
As well, today, I am ashamed and mortifed to find out that the shooter was Korean.
But even more greater than my shame, is my anger at what senseless violence occurred yesterday. And the sadness that fills me when I think of the people who lost their loved ones. People who woke up yesterday, and went to school not knowing yesterday would be their last day. People who died trying to save the lives of others. Teachers who tried to baracade the door to prevent somone, whose sole intent was their harm, from entering.
I am angry that this young man, with a future, and education, and hope would allow his anger to swallow up his sense of humanity to the point of murderous rage.
I wonder how much suffering his parents and family must feel today. To not only lose a son, but to also know their son took his own life and the lives of others. To know their son did a dastardly deed and hurt many others in the process. The shame, hurt, and anger they must feel. How isolating a position they must be in. To not be able to grieve with the other parents, but instead feel a sense of responsibity to have given birth to and raised a murderer. I am sure they are wondering, “Was it my fault? Where did I do wrong?”
And to them.. I am sure that Cho, Seung-Hui’s parents must feel so much pain. And for that… I am saddened as well.
What horrible news to wake up to. I need to dwell on something more edifying than NPR in the morning…
This tragedy is such a reminder that we must put hope in the Lord. Without Him in our lives, there is no hope… and no answers for living in this world…
Virginia tech shooting…
Monday, April 16, 2007 at 9:36 pm | In virginia tech | Leave a CommentWhat a terrible tragedy. Over 30 people killed today. What a random act of violence. So heart rending and horrible to watch on tv.
WHY? Why is there a need to act out such hideous violence against other innocent people? What could have caused such a horrible deed?
The parents and siblings and close family members of those killed or hurt today must be in so much suffering. May they find comfort in this time of need. May they find peace and comfort and rest.
So sad…
Hollywood & Pop Culture
Saturday, April 14, 2007 at 8:30 am | In movies | Leave a CommentI’ve noticed more and more lately that certain phrases from Hollywood movies have made their way into our pop culture. For certain reasons, there are phrases which gain so much popularity that others start using them on a regular basis.
Here are a few I’ve heard recently:
You…. complete me. (Jerry Mcguire)
You love me just as I am… (Bridget Jones on the Edge of Reason)
Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn! (Gone with the Wind)
Show me the money (Jerry Mcguire)
Life is like a box of chocolates, never know what you’re gonna to get (Forest Gump)
Stupid is as stupid does (Forest Gump)
Keep your friends close, but your enemies even closer (The Godfather)
You can’t lose something you never had (How to lose a guy in 10 days)
There are countless others obviously that have not been listed. What I want to focus on are the ones related to love, cause love is pretty much a common theme in movies in Hollywood. The reality of the 2 quote I’ve bolded above shows perhaps how ridiculous and un-Christian they are in theology.
“You… complete me” is this rather idolatrous quote that says there is ONE other person out in the world that makes us complete. The last time I checked the bible, the only other person who can complete me was God. But maybe it’s because deep down in all of us we want to be completed, so we have latched onto this saying in pop culture like it is a life preserver. And we hope with all our might that if we simply find that single right person for us out there, somewhere, somehow……. our life will be made perfect.
“You love me just as I am…” Wow. This speaks of unconditional love. The last time I checked that out, the only being who truly loved us unconditionally was (and is) God. Anyone who tells us that our parents or our spouse or girlfriend or boyfriend or friend loves us unconditionally is telling a pretty outright lie. The reality is that we have traits, qualities, and attributes that make us attractive and lovable to others. You take that away, and the first people not to love us would be our spouses, and significant others. I would say that our significant relationship we have with our spouse/loved one is actually the most conditional love of all. Think about it.
The true cold hard factof reality is that the only TRULY unconditional love we seek is actually available from God. All other loves are conditional at various levels. For instance, lets assume that you are wildly popular with your friends. You are witty, charming, intelligent, bright and talented. You have very pleasant looks, and to boot, you are extremely talented at whatever you do. I am sure people would flock to you and want to be your friend. They would absolutely love and adore you.
Then, lets say you had a tragic accident… major brain trauma that reduced your intelligence to a 2 year old and to boot, you body becomes becomes horribly disfigured (and difficult to look at). You lose all mobility and movement and become spastic. You cease to recognize yourself, your friends, and your loved ones. And the only conversation you have, when you do decide to speak, is to yell horribly abusive words within hearing distance of you. To make this example even more worthy, lets also say you suffer from a mental disorder of various kinds. And.. this change is permanent, and there is no cure, and this condition (physically, mentally and emotionally) will remain until the day you die. Tragic. Essentially you are no longer the person you once were when you were so beloved and “loved just as you were” before the accident.
I wonder exactly how many of those previous so-called “unconditionally loving” friends/significant others who loved you “just as you are” would decide to continue to be loving and attracted. I wonder how many would truly be able stick around day in and day out, providing physical and emotional care for the rest of your days? If this condition lasted your entire lifespan to death (i.e. 70 years), would they be still there at the end of 70 years?
The point is that ultimately the love people harbour for each other is conditional. No matter how much Hollywood tells us otherwise of love… the reality is that all loves are conditional and never fully fulfilling. What we yearn goes far deeper than what we can find in our significant other, or our friends, or our families…
Facebook and security issues
Friday, April 13, 2007 at 9:20 am | In gripes, technology | Leave a CommentIt seems to me that facebook collects (or has the opportunity to) collect much more information than the other platforms out there. To even join a “network” that is a university/college, it requires you to enter in your personal email account at that particular institution. Some people even have their resumes (work history) on there so to speak. Literally, be it friend, foe, neighbour, peeping Tom, Dick, and Harry, or employer can do a search for your name and look you up.
Even worse, is people can tag others on pictures. So yesterday, as I took a look at facebook, I realized I belonged to a network, which allowed me to see a lot of pages of people who belonged in the network. And a classmate of mine had signed up, and then put really embarrassing pictures of another classmate who was extremely drunk and silly looking on her facebook album. And to top it off, she had tagged it. Lovely. At that very moment I was thanking my lucky stars I wasn’t the one in her picture. How embarrassing. There it was, out there for the world to see.
And then… there was another classmate who had received a “private” e-present in the picture of a thong, but for some reason it was available for everyone who was a friend of the person to see. Ewww. Also embarrassing.
Anyways, it seems according to wikipedia, Facebook has quite a bit of issues with security. I can just even think of datamining being a big issue with this as people have their real names, their school affiliations, their coursework, their emails, contacts, relatives, and friends… the list is endless. Scary actually.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Facebook
In fact, wiki talks about how 2 students from MIT downloaded OVER 70 000 PROFILES from facebook as part of a research project. Here is an excerpt from wikipedia:
Privacy concerns
There have been some concerns expressed regarding the use of Facebook as a means of surveillance and data mining. Theories have been written about the possible misuse of Facebook[22] and privacy proponents have criticized the site’s current privacy agreement. According to the policy, “We may use information about you that we collect from other sources, including but not limited to newspapers and Internet sources such as blogs, instant messaging services and other users of Facebook, to supplement your profile.” However, some features—such as AIM away-message harvesting and campus newspaper monitoring—have been dropped and Facebook has since responded to the concerns. Facebook has assured worried users the next privacy policy will not include the clause about information collection and has denied any data mining is being done “for the CIA or any other group.”[23] However, the possibility of data mining by private individuals unaffiliated with Facebook remains open, as evidenced by the fact that two MIT students were able to download, using an automated script, over 70,000 Facebook profiles from four schools (MIT, NYU, the University of Oklahoma, and Harvard) as part of a research project on Facebook privacy published on December 14th, 2005.[24]
Great… food for thought.
Stress.. is bad…
Thursday, April 12, 2007 at 10:24 am | In Uncategorized | Leave a CommentI was on the phone yesterday with a very good friend of mine, and we ended up briefly talking about stress. Bottom line: stress is bad. It wreaks havoc not only on your life, but also on your body, making it secrete all the bad hormones. It’s also interesting how the Bible talks about worry…
Philippians 4:6-7
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Matthew:
Who of you by worrying, can add another hour to his life?
I think that it’s clear that even from a biblical perspective that “worry” and “stress” is bad. In terms of dealing with stress and worry in a biblical manner, I haven’t written the verses down here. But prayer is one major component, as well as faith and trust in God.
I have also known Christians who take this a little too far, and assume Christians should be irresponsible. God simply becomes an excuse not to plan their lives, and use their time productively. Instead, God will guide them and lead them, such that they have no work ethic or diligence in the daily lives. They become lazy, and cease to work. They literally squander away their time doing nothing, and being incredibly optimistic to the point of foolishness. And for that, I think there is much to be said about work, and being lazy in the Bible as well.
But how easy it is for many Christians (myself included), to pick and choose the parts of the book that we like to adhere to, and ignore the pieces that may pinch our consciences. Anything that may sound remotely like rebuke, aren’t we the generation that quickly tunes it out? Turning down the volume, cutting off the relationships, severing the ties, and ceasing communication? In a generation that is incredibly self indulgent, and ipods, cell phones, and internet are part of the make-up of communication… we’ve learnt to apply application type behaviors towards human relationships and communication.
But I digress… the point is that worrying and being stressed is definitely a bad thing. However the ultimate and true question is, what should the Christian response be to stressors in our lives (be it people or things, or events)? One clear answer is that, walking away and ignoring it, and pretending it doesn’t exist is not the true solution.
Internet connectivity…
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 at 1:43 pm | In technology | Leave a CommentWell… I’ve succombed… I’ve actually made a facebook account.. only at the much urging of a friend who sent me an email invite. It started off with IRC, ICQ, MSN messenger, google talk, myspace, xanga and now facebook.
It’s nothing new really, other than the fact that perhaps facebook plays off the 6 degrees of separation theory to draw people into it’s network.
It’s a great site for setting up a group website (i.e. group bulletin board) as it’s inbuilt already. Almost wish we had facebook around for some really tough on-line courses I took about 2 years ago. I could have definitely used it then.
But it feels almost very wrong to have something with so much of my information, and a list of my friends on the net for others to see. I am sure there is a disable function somewhere. Who knows. I’m guessing my facebook will be the most boring one out there as I don’t plan to put much on it.
Hope, faith… love…
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 at 10:42 am | In Uncategorized | 1 CommentA few nights ago, probably right before Good Friday and Easter Sunday, there was a documentary on TV. Usually I tend not to watch documentaries, nor read biographies. The only biographies I’ve read was on Churchill and Clinton, and only at the much urging of other influential people in my life (who are biography buffs).
Anyways what I saw on TV was not only horrific, but heart rending, and heart breaking, and it made me want to cry. For there is a little girl in the US, who has been born without a face. Her body is from her neckline and below is perfectly formed by appearance, but her face is completely missing. It is apparently a genetic defect called Treacher Collins Syndrome. In the olden days, I think she would have died after birth, for she had leakage of her CSF (cerebral spinal fluid) after birth, and that was repaired immediately post birth. Technology… a double edged sword.
She can not speak (for she has no mouth), and they are teaching her sign language. She can only hear with a device that is attached to her head… and she has constant 24 hour nursing care. She doesn’t have a nose, and they have put tubes up her face where the nasal passage should be, such that the passages don’t close up.
She has undergone multiple major surgeries in her young age, and apparently still faces a mountain full of surgeries in her lifetime. Never-mind the ridicule and stares, whispering, pointing and gawking by insensitive people in this world. I wanted to cry… for her.
And I then reflected on my life, and how lucky it is that we have been born with something we take for granted… a face… nasal cavity to breathe and filter our air, oral structure to eat from and speak from, and ears to hear from and eyes to see from. There is a part in the bible that speaks of how wonderfully we are made… loved by God from the moment we are born… every part of us. And truly it is incredible how wonderful the human physiology and structures is, for each part has a purpose and a need.
There is also a part in the Bible that speaks of how God will not give us more than we can handle. I believe this portion of the verse speaks of suffering and hardships that will come our way. And then I thought how very special this child must be… as well as her parents. To have such immense amount of hope, and faith and love… when faced with such hardship and sadness.
We take so many things for granted, and forget that sometimes… good health is an immense blessing in life. And how easily we lose our hope, or our faith, or our love when something little makes us stumble. Ultimately, to hope in God, I think… is what will help us overcome many of the hurdles that come our way.
Here is the link to her story.. and it also has a picture.
http://www.mymultiplesclerosis.co.uk/misc/juliannawetmore.html
How Can I Keep From Singing (Chris Tomlin)
Monday, April 9, 2007 at 11:54 pm | In Love that music! | Leave a Comment
What an absolutely beautiful song. I think they sang this at the most recent Urbana Conference (although I did not attend it this past year).
I am sure many Christians can relate to this song and it’s lyrics. Sometimes it feels like being a Christian means getting to experience all these warm and fuzzy “feelings” of goodness and happiness…. probably because many times, there are such wonderful feelings that come from knowing the one, true and awesome God.
But in truth… having joy is actually a choice. It is not about naively going around spouting false optimism and wearing pink coloured glasses… as many new Christians falsely believe it to be. But rather it is about truly understanding and knowing why we rejoice and consciously making a choice to rejoice in God.
And in the midst of troubled times, as we seek God in prayer and sorrow, oftentimes, our prayers will soon turn to ones of praise… This doesn’t mean that being a Christian automatically puts one onto the fast track of life of living a so-called picture “perfect” life. Many of us may erroneously portray that life is perfect… but the reality is that we are still human (broken people), living in a world of sin.
However, the great thing is, that through God, He makes us complete…. and as this song so poignantly says, “how can we keep from singing God praise?” knowing what we do.
This song is just so wonderful in that it is so true, and hits the issues exactly as it is. What a powerful reminder this song is of the joy we have in God. I just can’t help but love this worship song… for it’s totally and absolutely FULL of JOY and REJOICING.
“How Can I Keep From Singing”
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You’ll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing ’cause You pick me up
Sing ’cause You’re there
I can sing ’cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I’ll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne
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