Highlights of Life

dealing with insomnia

Actually that title is misleading, as I’m not “dealing” with it at all. I seem to have it… and don’t know what to do about it. It’s now 6 am in the morning, and I haven’t slept a wink. The most disturbing part is that I don’t feel exhausted or tired. My mind feels a bit numb… in a weird sort of way, but other than that, I don’t have this overwhelming urge to go to sleep.

I miss sleeping. I used to require 8 hours of sleep a night to function properly, even during my university days, when my peers used to pull all-nighters. But ever since losing an ovary, I seem to not need sleep. In fact, I seem to survive on 3 to 4 hours of sleep a day. This disturbs me a lot. I sometimes wonder if it’s the drop in progesterone or something, related to losing the ovary. *sigh*

I worry about not sleeping. One would think I would enjoy the extra hours I have in the middle of the night, but I don’t. Instead, I lie in bed and wonder why I can’t sleep and where is my overwhelming need to sleep. This niggles at my brain and then I get out of bed, and do other stuff in the hopes that sleep will return, but it doesn’t.

I bet it’s hormonally related with the loss of the ovary. But what can I do? It’s not like I can grow another ovary again.

Anyways, it’s 6 am, I’m not sleepy, but I feel a bit numb and dizzy from not being well rested. It’s an odd sensation. I WANT to sleep…. but my body isn’t sleepy. *sigh*

So instead, here I am blogging, in the weirdest hours of the night. 6 am. Sheesh.

Did I ever mention that I like fox news slogan? “Fair and balanced”…. it brings a smile to my face. Only fox will carry some tabloid headlines in their front section of their online news, and whenever I mention it to my husband, he’ll ask me why I read such trash. I simply reply with an innocent look on my face, and protest, “but it’s fair and balanced news!” Love their slogan.

I’m going to try to sleep… goodnight…errr, morning.