Highlights of Life

guilt

Today, as I was walking out the door, my daughter grabbed a hold of my shirt (which is fairly new) and tugged on it.  I was annoyed.  It stretched out the shirt, and was hindering me from freedom movement.  So I rather demanded she let go.  She didn’t respond.  So again, I asked her to let go, increasing the decibel of my voice.  To which she responded to me, “mom, don’t you know when someone likes something you are wearing, they want to touch it?”

The way she said this in her rather unhurried, and teaching tone of voice, snapped me right back to the moment in time, and I stopped in my tracks, and stopped rushing out the door, to turn to her and asked, “do you like mommy’s shirt?”

To this, she responded very truthfully and quietly, “yes, it’s very soft.”

At to which point, everything now made sense.  The annoyance and sense of being late immediately drained from my body, and I felt incredibly guilty for having snapped at her, and felt almost a huge sense of guilt.  I felt remorse for my snappy and irritated tone of voice I had used on my innocent little daughter, who had taken the time to teach me her perspective.

I made a mental note to be more patient with my daughter.. not everything is as it seems in life.  To me, her actions felt like almost like a pestering annoyance… ignoring my request to let my shirt go, when in reality, she was exploring her world, touching and feeling something that felt delightful to her hands.  Touching the clothing of her mother that she loved.

Well, I think I was wrong in the way I treated my daughter, and I realized it acutely as soon as she patiently taught me so effectively WHY she was touching my shirt (which I had not even asked for an explanation).

On a total side note

I bought a big can of iced coffee can from Costco last weekend. The sample tasted amazing.  I’ve been using it lately to make iced latte coffee for myself.  The reality is that one is supposed to take a blender and blend the items… but again, I did not do this method.

But I digress.  This coffee, although tasting great, did NOT keep me up.  Being caffiene naive, this stuff should affect me like anything.  Instead…. I keep falling asleep.  Tonight I realized why.  As I passed by the can on the counter (in the kitchen) the label read, NO CAFFEINE.

that would explain why I keep nodding off after eating 2 cups of it in a row.  Sheesh.