Highlights of Life

it’s been a while

I keep forgetting I have a blog.  This obscure rather type of blog that even I have trouble logging into.  I forget I have this thing.  And then once in a blue moon, I remember it.  Some random thoughts that I took time to write down. It’s not a journal, it’s not a book… it’s kind of this thing in limbo.  Something that technology allows me to publish to an unknown audience of probably zero, and yet here one goes around writing some random thoughts and publishing it.
What is it about this generation of people?  With the advent of technology, we are given this ability to make known our private lives, thoughts, pictures, music, videos known to a wider range of public at large.  And we do it without any self control.  Very little censoring.  And sometimes there is a lot of garbage out there in the world.  Take twitter for instance… does everyone really want to know some person’s minutiae thoughts… in detail that may be floating through their heads?  Half the time, the things floating through our minds are crap (excuse the language) anyways.  And pictures (which is my personal weakness cause I love to take them and then post them)… why must we share everything so personal online?  From facebook to weblogs, to youtube, we are posting personal stuff.

Then there is the voyeurism.  People spending hours poring over other people’s pictures and the image of themselves that they portray out there.   How many people post on facebook the times they are crying or videos of their divorce or separation or the times they argue?  Nope, it’s the pics of their baby’s birth, or a wedding, engagement pictures, or conquering a mountain, or skiing down the Swiss alps, or sailing the Pacific ocean.  Someone once said to me, with the advent of facebook, people are more unhappy as they look at other people’s lives.  How true.  And, this fairly astute person also said, that our lives is what we WANT to portray on facebook.

This brings me to the condition of the human heart.  sigh.   Once when I was a naive young girl in my teens and 20′s I was proud to think that I only thought the best of people.  I honestly believed that everyone (including “bad” people) truly had a good part in their heart, if you dug really hard… and that some people were just screwed up because of their tragic experiences.  But now… my world paradigm has shifted.  Or perhaps I’m just bitter, old and cynical.  After a few bad run ins with bad people who… I’ve decided that some people are just bad, and you can not truly find an ounce of goodness in them.  That truly, the only way we are “good” is through the redemption of Jesus Christ.  Until then.. our hearts are truly … what is that word that begins with a “d” … it’s on the tip of my tongue.. meaning degenerate, deceiving, destitute etc.  All the bad connotative d words.

Anyways, just more random thoughts of mine at 5 am in the morning.

On a total side note… God is GOOD.  How good when you see prayers answered.

in my “old” age…. for truly I am older, not “old”… but, anyways, what I’ve learnt so far in my short life thus far, is to always dream big.  I’m not saying dream stupid or ridiculous… but to remember that our God is an awesome God, who does hear all things, and to take a larger vision for things, and to dream big, and expect big things to happen.
Random thought.

Another random thought, random because I hate to organize it into a nice flowing piece of written work (as I am truly lazy right now)… is that yesterday I picked up my daughter from her last day of summer camp (at her church).  And while the parents were there, and all the kids were gathered, they had a praise time.  And they sang the song “Undignified”

And these kids, my daughter included, truly were rejoicing in this song… dancing and singing.  I saw my little daughter, who is just a toddler preschooler, dancing and singing wholeheartedly, jumping up and down with joy to the song, and how my heart rejoiced.  There are moments in life, that just makes you smile and sing inside.  That was one of those moments.  :)

Here is the song…..