Highlights of Life

Sometimes…  there are no words… just pain, anger and questions.  And all I want are answers…

So I woke up to NPR saying the shooter was a South Korean National.  Great.  He was a US alien resident (i.e. landed permanent resident), Korean national, and a Virginia tech student.  I’m so angry that this happened.  I’m upset this young man, who had so much to live for, decided to go out and take innocent lives along with his own.

WHY?  What could have made him so horribly angry, or so upset to lash out in rage at society like that?  What was so hopeless about his life that he decided to end his life, and hurt others in the process?  Why?  These are questions I would ask him, as well as the Columbine shooters.  Why?

As well, today, I am ashamed and mortifed to find out that the shooter was Korean.   

But even more greater than my shame, is my anger at what senseless violence occurred yesterday.  And the sadness that fills me when I think of the people who lost their loved ones.  People who woke up yesterday, and went to school not knowing yesterday would be their last day.  People who died trying to save the lives of others.  Teachers who tried to baracade the door to prevent somone, whose sole intent was their harm, from entering.  

I am angry that this young man, with a future, and education, and hope would allow his anger to swallow up his sense of humanity to the point of murderous rage.

I wonder how much suffering his parents and family must feel today.  To not only lose a son, but to also know their son took his own life and the lives of others.  To know their son did a dastardly deed and hurt many others in the process.  The shame, hurt, and anger they must feel.  How isolating a position they must be in.  To not be able to grieve with the other parents, but instead feel a sense of responsibity to have given birth to and raised a murderer.    I am sure they are wondering, “Was it my fault?  Where did I do wrong?”

And to them.. I am sure that Cho, Seung-Hui’s parents must feel so much pain.  And for that… I am saddened as well.

What horrible news to wake up to.  I need to dwell on something more edifying than NPR in the morning…

This tragedy is such a reminder that we must put hope in the Lord.  Without Him in our lives, there is no hope… and no answers for living in this world…